HIS FIRST TIME - EROTIC FICTION

Andrew plucks up the courage to visit a Dominatrix for the very first time, and finds his deviant desires awoken. Mistress ensures he is left with a lasting impression of what She expects from him.

EROTIC FICTION - RECORDING

While Mistress is away....

When I'm not online, you're still working hard to please Me. The devil makes work for idle hands. So it is My intention to ensure your hands are NEVER idle. If they're idle then there's a danger they will be used for activities of which you are not entitled to. And we can't have that, can we? It is your duty to always ensure you are busy, beavering away, to keep your Mistress happy.

Minions are never too tired to serve, or have other things more important than ensuring their Mistress is satisfied. Minions go above and beyond to stay in Mistress; good books. Minions are always prepared to show Mistress why they should continue to receive My attention. Minions know that their number one priority is satisfying the needs and desire of Mistress and nothing else.

You will do this today by following the simple steps as outlined below:

1. Choose an assignment theme from the list as illustrated above.
2. Email the address above to request said assignment.
3. Answer My questions in a timely and honest manner.
4. Follow any instructions I send to you.

Minions will also ensure they abide by the following terms and conditions when completing tasks for Mistress.

• You will ensure said assignment is completed in its entirety by the deadline I set for you.
• You will ensure you send photographic evidence & diary of you completing the assignment.
• You will ensure your diary is well written and free from any spelling or grammatical errors.
• You will ensure you acknowledge receipt of your assignment within 24 hours of receipt.
• You will pay any late fines for assignments not completed by the deadline set.
• You will acknowledge that assignments more than seven days late will lead to your INSTANT DISMISSAL from My training.

I'm sure even you can follow these simple instructions. Are you ready to please Me? You may now begin.

Dispelling the myths about Online Domination.

It is a common misconception among the ignorant that Online Domination is not really BDSM and that those who offer it; are not really Dominatrices. 

The fact is; Online Domination is just as popular as real-time Domination and in many respects; is often much more intense.

The major difference between real time and online is that there is far more psychology involved. "Setting the scene" in person is far easier than it is when you set the scene at a distance. In addition; you're not physically there to ensure slave obeys; so it goes without saying that it takes a greater amount of control to ensure your slave fulfils every single command you give. 

What you have to remember is that Online Dommes do not allow any perceived limitations to become obstacles in their control on their slaves. Rather; they go around them to ensure both Domme and slave receives the best possible experience. This takes a lot of thought on the part of the Domme. She is verbally painting pictures of a BDSM scenario to really allow slave to put his head into the scene and the mindset She expects. It takes a very creative and knowledgeable person to be able to do that; in order to make it as close to the real thing as possible.

And then there's the issue of safety; especially ensuring the safety of slave. In a real-time situation, a Domme can quickly halt any proceedings to ensure slave does not suffer any injury or long-term negative effects of any BDSM practice. That responsibility is much larger when in an online position; because She doesn't have the luxury of being able to do that. Indeed; aftercare after an online session is just as important as it is during a real-time session; more so in many cases. Domme has to rely on slave to ensure he follows Her instructions in order to remain within the realms of safe, sane play. It also means that Domme absolutely has to be fully aware of any potential risks encountered throughout various BDSM practises and have measure in place to ensure slave is not exposed to those risks.

So why does online domination receive such a bad reputation from those who don't really know anything about it?

Indeed; it could be argued that it's not as good as the real thing. Arguably, more control is seized in a real-time scenario. But the fact that it's purely online based does not make it any less tangible. A good online Dominatrix has the ability to make the session seem as though She is really in the room with the slave. She does this not by just sitting there on a webcam and barking orders at Her submissive; but by fully interacting with him and ensuring he plays a very active part in the session. It's all too easy to sit there and say "right slave; this is what I would do if I was there..." Yes; you could do that. But slave is easily going to get bored. It is also commonly known that men are rather more visual then they are imaginative. In terms of porn; men like it to be blunt and to the point; no kissy-kissy romance. They like it dirty and they like it with no holes barred, and they like it in their face. A good Domme knows and demonstrates this.

"Online Domination is not REAL Domination - so why should I have to pay for it?"

Let's put it into a clear perspective here. As I've mentioned above; a good Online Dominatrix will be seriously clued up on safe, sane practices. Whether it be a real-time or online setting; you are still putting your trust in Her 100%. You are also giving up 100% control to Her. When you enjoy an online session with Her; you're not just talking to Her on webcam. You're enjoying years of knowledge and expertise. She is a specialist in the art of BDSM; having spent years learning & researching it. She will often know far more about it than you do; which is why She has the ability to take full control. And She will also be teaching you a few things about not only the BDSM scene, but about yourself along the way. Yes; you could probably go into a chat room and chat to somebody for free about it. But I guarantee; you won't get the same experience and knowledge as you would from actually having a session with a Professional Dominatrix. BDSM is Her career. She's selling a service. And as all good sales-people know; if you're going to sell something; you have to know your product inside and out. If you don't have seller-confidence; how are you ever going to achieve buyer-confidence?

So of course if you're seeking the services of a Professional Online Dominatrix, is perfectly right to expect to pay Her for Her time. She is an expert at what She does. The fact that it's kink shouldn't make a blind bit of difference. Like any other expert; She's offering a service.

In My personal & professional opinion; the bad press which sometimes surrounds Online Domination is brought on by a combination of lack of knowledge both on the part of the submissive and the "Domme" who has not learned Her trade. There are many girls out there who portray themselves as an online "Femdom". You approach them; pay your money and receive absolutely NOTHING to do with the BDSM/Fetish scene. Instead; what you receive is some nasty little brat calling you every name under the sun; while she demands you pay her more money. Of course such an experience is going to leave a bad taste in your mouth and put you off the whole thing.

But keep and open mind. There are many Online Dommes who ARE the genuine article yet don't offer real-time sessions for a variety of different reasons. Those reasons are not limited to them being "fakes". It could be that they are in the same position as Myself - they are in a romantic D/s relationship and therefore are not prepared to take on any real-time slaves unless and until that situation changes. Or perhaps its a safety issue. Or maybe they simply don't have the space to offer real-time. In short; it's down to personal choice - horses for courses. And those choices should be respected; not dismissed out of ignorance.

The truth is; if you've never tried Online Domination before, you truly don't know what you're missing! 

The dreaded "wasabi treatment".....

Ah, the moment chastity sub had long since been dreading. It was time to move his suffering up a few notches. Enter the "wasabi treatment"!

"When Mistress Cristal instructed me to purchase wasabi paste to be used in the next session I was to have with Mistress it immediately filled me with a feeling of deep anticipation and dread. Mistress has ordered me to use hot English mustard and hot Tabasco before on Her cock and balls and nipples and I have experienced and suffered the heat they generate. However wasabi has a reputation of being very hot to touch on skin so the knowledge that I would be experiencing this gave a deep feeling of dread and anticipation. I know that I am fully owned by Mistress Cristal and that I have no choice in what is done to me or my body as it is Mistresses to do with as she desires. I also know that any thought I have on anything is of no concern to Mistress as what is important is what Mistress desires or chooses.

When I went into the supermarket I was full of anticipation and when I picked up the wasabi all I could think of was how hot it would feel on me when used. It was 2 weeks after purchasing the paste that I had a session with Mistress. In those 2 weeks I was always conscious that the paste was there waiting to be used and was in dread of the feeling of it. All that time knowing I had no choice in how it was used as it was all Mistress Cristals choice. I could see the wasabi every day reminding me of what I was due to experience.

On the day of the session I had everything prepared and ready for Mistress Cristal to use in any way she chose. I was in complete trepidation and dread and fear of what was to come and excited in the knowledge that as I am the property of Mistress Cristal that I had to fully submit with no choice or concern of my thoughts.

The session was over an hour of suffering cock, ball and nipple torture for Mistresses amusement and pleasure. Throughout all the suffering I knew there was more to experience and I was in dread that it was going to be worse than I have ever experienced before. When Mistress instructed me to spread a generous amount of the wasabi paste onto a plate I was in complete dread and trepidation in fear it was going to be the worst heat I have ever been made to experience for Mistresses pleasure and amusement.

When Mistress Cristal instructed me to paint the wasabi paste with an artist paint brush generously over Her balls I knew I had no choice but to obey. Before hand the balls had already been made sore and very tender from the session. During the session I had them spanked hard with a wooden spoon before having 2 industrial clamps applied biting in hard and painfully. With the clamps attached I had been forced to do a minutes marching, a minutes jogging on the spot, 20 squats, 20 lunges with the left leg and 20 lunges with the right leg, can can for a minute and a minutes pogo jumping. Throughout all this the pain of the clamps bouncing around tugging hard on the skin of my balls was very hard and got worse with each second. After this I had a pin wheel run deep around the skin next to were the clamps were biting in which was a strong pain going right through me making me shake hard. After this the balls had been further softened by having hot wax dripped on them which as it hit areas were the clamps had bitten in and where the pins had dug in deep really stung hard. Once the wax was hardened every spot of it was removed by whipping hard with a leather belt. Before the paste was even applied my balls were really tender and sore. The heat from the wasabi as the brush touched my balls was like the flame from the candle being applied directly to them. The heat got worse and worse as my balls were fully coated in a thick layer of wasabi paste. They felt like they were on a hot plate with the heat gradually getting hotter and hotter bringing more tears to my eyes all the time.

I was then instructed to paint the paste onto my nipples. During the session they had also been made sore and tender by having clover clamps applied with 16 ounces of weights added to hang off them tugging them down hard before doing the exercises as above. As the exercising had intensified the swinging of the weights on the clamps had gotten worse making the clamps bite harder and tug sharper on my nipples. As the weights bounced up there was a moment of release of tension of the clamps on the nipples immediately followed by gravity forcing the weights back down increasing the pain of the biting of the clamps more and more. Do to the sweating from the exercise, pain and humidity the clamps slipped from the nipples which made them tug down hard on the nipples causing more pain than when they were put on. When I was allowed to remove the industrial clamps from my balls I had to place them on my nipples and as they were already so sore and tender from the weighted clover clamps the pain was tremendous. After Mistress gave me permission to remove the clamps the pin wheel was run over the nipples deep which was incredibly sharp and painful. As my nipples were already so tender and in pain I was in dread of the heat from the wasabi paste. As it was painted on thickly the heat also felt like a naked flame on them getting hotter and hotter and made me shake and sweat a lot more.

The heat from the wasabi paste coated on my balls and nipples was far worse than I had suffered from hot mustard and hot Tabasco and seemed to keep getting hotter and hotter with each second bringing more sweat and tears to my eyes. I had no choice but to endure it for as long as Mistress decided for her pleasure and amusement. My pain and suffering and discomfort was of no concern to Mistress as it is Her pleasure that is the principal goal.

I then had the vibrating butt plug inserted and put on its most intense setting. There was some pleasure felt from the vibrations but this was overwhelmed by the heat.

During the 2 weeks I had the wasabi I had been instructed by Mistress to undertake 2 hours tease and denial every day collecting my pre cum in a brandy glass with an extra 5 hour tease and denial the day before the session. Mistress made me take the full content of the glass into my mouth and keep it there until She said otherwise. It felt humiliating having a mouth full of pre cum being made to taste it for as long as Mistress wanted.

Mistress then gave me permission to wank but only by wrapping coarse sandpaper around Her cock and using that. It was a strange mixture of pain and discomfort from the heat burning my balls and nipples and the sandpaper rubbing my already tortured and tender cock mixed with pleasure from wanking after being on edge for 2 weeks solid and from the vibrating butt plug and shame and humiliation from having a mouthful of pre cum and tasting it all the time. After some hard begging Mistress was very kind to allow me to cum in the glass. I felt great pleasure from cumming which was immediately replaced with a reminder of how hot the wasabi was burning. Mistress then allowed me to swallow all the pre cum and then drink the full content of the glass followed by the humiliation of having to scoop every last part of the cum out with my fingers and lick them clean and swallow it all like I was hungry and thirsty for every last drop of cum like a cum hungry slut.

After the session I also had the humiliation of Mistress informing the whole world of my suffering and showing them pictures of my hot wasabi covered balls and nipples.

It was a relief to have permission after this from Mistress to remove the hot wasabi and apply cucumber to help cool my balls and nipples. It was the hottest they have ever been and the heat lasted for hours . Mistress also filled me with further dread by saying this appeared to be her weapon of choice now knowing how hot it actually is. I know as Mistress Cristal pet and property what is most important is Her pleasure and there is no concern for my thoughts on anything or my suffering in achieving this."

And since then; chastity sub has acquired another "instrument of torture"....keep your eyes peeled for what THAT might be....

CONDITIONS FOR SERVING ME.

Many boys want to know about the conditions in place for serving Me and the rules are really very simple.

1. You MUST be aged 21 or over.
2. You MUST NOT be owned or under consideration.
3. You MUST be prepared to commit to at least 2 webcam sessions per month or 3 email assignments per month.
4. You MUST be GENUINELY SUBMISSIVE - right from your application I will be able to tell if you are not.
5. You MUST understand that My services are not free. Fee is always expected.
6. You MUST NOT dictate the terms of your servitude. While I will respect your limits; I will not bend My rules to suit you.
7. You MUST understand that serving Me is about Me. Your wants and needs do not even enter into the equation.
8. You MUST understand that orgasm/relief is NOT GUARANTEED. Only I have the power to decide if and when you may cum. I will only decide if I feel you have done enough to earn it.
9. You MUST understand the difference between "fees" and "tributes." Fees are what you pay for a session. Tributes are gifts given freely without expectation and obligation.
10. You MUST have at least a basic knowledge of BDSM. If you don't then you will be expected to read and learn BEFORE you approach. While I will happily train those who a new to the scene; I will not train those who are ignorant to it.
11. You MUST be honest about your likes and dislikes. I am not psychic and I expect you to be forthcoming with the truth.
12. You MUST be prepared to surrender control to Me 100%. If you have any shadow of doubt in your mind; then you should not approach. Submission is either given or it isn't.
13. You MUST NOT assume that you will become My property overnight. It takes a lot of hard-work, dedication, loyalty and servitude to reach that honour. Some will never achieve it. Only the most obedient and dedicated; will.

These rules cannot be clearer and the onus is on you to read and understand them. I do not take ignorance as an excuse. If you haven't done your homework from day one; that tells Me that you are not serious enough about serving and will not last the distance. Remember; I take QUALITY above quantity. And to be taken seriously; your application must reflect that you have the quantities I seek in a slave. 

Your sissy life awaits you...

There's a good sissy. Now you just hold still while Mistress turns you into a very pretty girl. By the time I've finished with you; all the boys will want you. They'll all be hard and standing to attention as you show of your girly charms. I guarantee that they will all want to fuck you. All those times you've dreamed about taking as much cock as you can eat! Well that fantasy of yours is about to become reality. There will be no shortage of cock for you. You'll soon get used to having your holes plugged with thick, hard cock-meat. And once I've caged you; you'll no longer be concerned with your own little sissy-cock. You don't need it any more. Girls don't have cocks. They have nice willing holes in which to receive cock. Sissy girls like you spend most of their time on their knees; sucking on cock and taking it up their sweet little pussies. They become addicted to the taste and feel of cum being pumped inside them. This is the life that awaits you. I'll get you so addicted; you'll be more than happy to whore yourself out for My gain. It's a win-win situation. You get to spend the rest of your life as a cock-holster and I get to exploit your sissy ass for My own financial gain! It's that just perfect? Aren't you a lucky little sissy bitch to be given this wonderful opportunity?

What makes a true submissive?

As I've mentioned before; the reason I only have a handful of owned submissives under My wing is because I take QUALITY over quantity. I have very high expectations and I expect My slaves to strive hard to meet them. Sadly; only a small percentage will last that distance and that small percentage are among the elite - those of whom are able to prove themselves worthy of My precious attention.

Anybody can type out an email and approach a Dominatrix with the intention of serving Her. But it's the thought and effort which goes into that email and indeed beyond; which makes a HUGE difference between gaining Her attention and finding themselves being ignored. "Surely it's just a case of doing as you're told" is a common misconception among many "would be" submissives. In truth it is far more complex than that. Obeying orders is just one small part of the whole dynamic of a D/s relationship and true servitude comes from within.

So what does make a good slave?

Let's talk about submission as a starting point. The fact is; submission is either given or it isn't. And when it is given; it's given in its entirety. No Dominatrix I know of will take on somebody who is only "a little bit" submissive. You either are or you aren't. And if you fall into the unsure category; then perhaps you're not ready to take the plunge into a D/s relationship until you have established what you really are.

By definition; to "submit" is to surrender all free will and give up control to another. And that control is absolute and extends far beyond the physical sense. The "controlled" should expect to have every single aspect of his life controlled for him - his thought patterns; his priorities, his day to day life; sometimes even his diet, his relationships, his wants and his needs and sometimes even his finances. And it is for this very reason why submission cannot be given at only half-measures. And on both sides of the coin; it is not to be undertaken by those who are only mildly curious. Just as giving up control comes with a certain amount of responsibility; taking control comes with a huge amount of responsibility.

As a Dominatrix; I am totally responsible for My slaves and not just their obedience. I am responsible for their physical, mental and emotional well-being. It is so very important not to lose sight of the fact that they are also human beings, Taking control of a slave is not as simple as say training a new puppy. Human beings by nature are far more complex than that and their psyche is often very very fragile. Respect and trust are the most important aspects of a D/s relationship. The submissive respects and trusts in you to keep them safe from any real harm. And you must respect their boundaries and weaknesses. You must also trust in them to be honest.

A true submissive will always put the needs of his Superiors above his own. Indeed; they understand that their needs are not important. That's not to say that they are robots who will willingly obey every command you give. Submission is more than that. It is a state of mind and will come easily to those who are genuinely submissive.

So from the word go; in that first point of contact with a Dominatrix; and before you even start taping out that application email; you need to ask yourself one very important question. "Why should I be considered?" To put things into perspective; I receive countless applications on a weekly basis. 90% of those applications are ignored. Why? Because they lack standards, care, effort and above all; selflessness. So think about the applications that fail to make the grade and consider why yours should stand out from the rest. What are you going to do to encourage said Dominatrix to actually READ your email? And how do you intend to illicit a positive response from Her? As a hint; "wrITing lYke Dis" is rude and unhelpful and will find itself in the bin....Don't rely on the spell-check either. There is no substitute for proof-reading to ensure good spelling and grammar.

Then comes the actual journey of servitude. Ask yourself this; "do you care more about what you get out of it or what your Mistress gets out of it?" Now this might seem an easy question to answer at first. But look at it again and consider another fact. If Mistress chooses to deny you any pleasure for an indeterminate period of time; will you consider yourself lucky or hard done to? If it's the latter; then servitude is not for you. If you understand that your frustration entertains Her and puts a smile on Her face; then your head is starting to get in the right place. And don't think you can fake your way through this process either. A good Dominatrix can spot that a mile off and it will quickly put a rather abrupt end to your journey.

Are you prepared to do whatever Mistress demands of you? If your answer starts with "yes but only if..." don't even continue that sentence. In fact; don't even continue reading. A true submissive realises that his servitude is not open for negotiation. He doesn't do what Mistress commands because he wants to. He does it because his Mistress is making him. That's not to say that Mistress will totally ignore your limits. These limits or "no go" areas are agreed upon before servitude begins. It is also mutual and...here's that important word again..RESPECTED. Mistress doesn't breach your limits on the understanding that you don't breach Hers. Respect is a two-way street.

And finally; is your selflessness "outside the box"? Are you intuitive in how you can further please your Mistress? Have you paid enough attention to Her to understand how best to please Her? Now this is something which separates the wheat from the chaff. A true submissive has the initiative to go above and beyond not because he wants something out of it; but because he receives real pleasure from the knowledge he has pleased his Mistress. And he comes up with more creative and SELFLESS ways to do this. Everything he does is with his Mistress in mind. And because it's with Mistress is mind; he always seeks Her permission before he does it. Making assumptions is the worst thing a sub and in fact a Domme can do. NEVER ASSUME. Just like every submissive is different; so is every Dominatrix. And we Dommes are VERY unpredictable. We make it our mission to be unpredictable - that's how we keep you chomping at the bit to continue pleasing us. The steps are simple - think, ask and act accordingly. And accept when Mistress says "no". Boys who whine and complain are not submissive. They're needy and they're selfish. I personally don't give the time of day to needy boys. I prefer boys who respect the word "no" as My final answer. Neither should a submissive expect Mistress to back up Her decision with a reason. The answer is simply; "because She has said so."

Chastity Sub becomes My owned pet.

It gives Me great pleasure to announce that Chastity Sub has achieved the highest honour after going above and beyond in his servitude and is now a fully owned pet. Here you can see him in the position he is expected to adopt when he presents himself to Me - naked, kneeling, hands behind his back and of course wearing his slave collar. He will be having a nice little tag attached to the collar once it's been fully engraved....I'm saving that as a reward if he pleases Me between now and his six month review.

Chastity Sub is the second of My owned pets; the first being Panty Boy. It may surprise you to know that I have only two slaves under My ownership. And why is this? Because I take QUALITY over quantity. Ownership is not something which happens automatically. It takes months of hard work; selfless servitude and exceptional behaviour to achieve this honour. And while many slaves serve Me; only those who meet My high standards are ever considered for ownership. Like both Chastity Sub and Panty Boy have; they must prove themselves worthy of this prestigious position. Many won't - but a few will be an exception. And it is those few who will attract My attention.

Of course ownership is only the beginning of the journey. Once you become My pet; that's when the REAL hard work starts. Just as ownership can be given; it can also be taken away. It is your duty to continue to work hard to please Me in order to hang on to that status. This means going above and beyond in your servitude; always keeping Mistress at the forefront of your mind. Chastity Sub and Panty Boy will last that distance. Both have the qualities I look for in a slave. Their devotion to Me will never falter; because they know how much My presence in their lives mean to them. They please Me not because I expect them to. But because they WANT to. The thought of disappointing Me is too terrible to imagine and they will do whatever they can to win My approval - THIS is what makes a good slave. And THIS is why only a few ever find themselves under My consideration. Slaves like these boys are among the elite. And they know what they must do in order to remain in that elite - always loyal, always devoted, always selfless and always obedient. And in turn; I am proud of them to have reached this exceptionally high standard. 

Just how sadistic is Mistress?

Don't believe I'm really that sadistic? I think chastity sub would whole-heartedly disagree with you! Here's a picture of his balls after today's torturous CBT session. The yellow stuff is strong English mustard - burning hot enough to make his eyes water. This is AFTER some torture with sand paper; the pin wheel, hot wax and of course a good whipping from a leather belt. It's also after he wore toothed clamps to his balls for 20 minutes.

By the time I'd finished with him; he was not only shaking in agony; he was also crying. Yes his eyes were squirting despite the fact that his cock still isn't allowed to squirt - not until at least May anyway.

So in to answer those who wonder just how sadistic I am - take a long hard look at this picture. It could be you if you play your cards right!

What constitutes bad behaviour of a slave?

I was recently asked by a considered slave; about what would constitute bad behaviour worthy of punishment. So rather than just tell him; I've decided to highlight this very good question in a blog post. This should clear up any confusion:

1. Failing to address Mistress in the correct and respectful manner.
2. Conversing with another Domme without the permission of Mistress.
3. Acts of masturbation and other sexual activity without the explicit permission of Mistress.
4. Failure to report to Mistress on a regular basis.
5. Failing to act on the instructions of Mistress.
6. Attempting to top from bottom.
7. Attempting to serve another Domme without the permission of Mistress.
8. Behaving in a less that respectful manner to other considered slaves.
9. Failing to report to any correspondence by Mistress; in a timely manner.
10. Failure to thoroughly complete any assignment as instructed by Mistress.
11. Lying to Mistress.
12. With-holding requested information from Mistress.
13. Sending dick pics without the permission of Mistress.
14. Failing to put the needs of Mistress above anything else.
15. Failing to request permission for "time off" due to work, family or holiday commitments.
16. Failing to submit assignments on time.
17. Failing to attend webcam appointments on time.
18. Failing to send appropriate webcam session/email assignment fees as requested by Mistress.
19. Failing to appear naked on webcam with Mistress; unless otherwise instructed.
20. Failing to update Mistress of any health or welfare issues.

Punishments for breaking the above rules vary from physical or psychological punishments. Of course the ULTIMATE punishment for a badly behaved slave is dismissal. And when you're dismissed; you're dismissed permanently. This means that Mistress will no longer acknowledge your existence....

BDSM For First-Timers.

Some of the subs who approach Me; have never explored BDSM and are indeed looking to get their feet wet. For a first-timer who's new to the scene; it can seem quite intimidating to approach a Dominatrix - especially when you're not quite sure what you're looking for. Now while I do expect My prospective subs to have at least a basic knowledge of BDSM (that involves doing some research on your part!); I do make allowances for those who have made the effort; but need a gentle introduction into the scene.

This is where My Slave Initiation Sessions are perfect for those who consider themselves to be "BDSM virgins". It is a gentle and non-threatening session for those who would like a little taster of what to expect in serving Me.

Slave Initiation comprises of the follows:

SPANKING

LIGHT COCK & BALL TORTURE

LIGHT NIPPLE TORTURE

ANAL PLAY

HUMILIATION

MASTURBATION

CUM EATING INSTRUCTION.

Slave Initiation is carried out via webcam on Skype and will last for approximately 15 minutes. If you wish to book; you may email Me directly at:

mistresscristal@mail.com

BDSM is a form of therapy.

What kind of person chooses to serve a Dominatrix? Now this is a question I've been asked many times over the years and truthfully; it is a lot more complex that simply giving a generalised answer. The fact is; there is always a deep-rooted reason why somebody would choose to give up control to another and the reasons for this are often rather complex. 

Many of the men (and women) who choose to serve; are often people who are in a position of power in their daily vanilla lives. Often they have an occupation where a great deal of responsibility is held firmly on their shoulders. They are responsible for those below them. They make important decisions. They are in full control and have to work hard to maintain that control. They have people depending on them to guide them on the best path. Such responsibility can cause a great deal of mental and emotional pressure and in some cases; anguish. Being in control for 12 to 15 hours a day is hard work both on the mind and the body. These people often find it difficult to relax, particularly in the case of professionals with a lot of responsibility.  Where do they find that light relief to allow them to shed that responsibility and go back to being a human being? The answer is; in giving up that control and responsibility to another.

Many professional people who use the services of a Dominatrix; will tell you that the feeling of surrendering their power to another is at once; completely refreshing. They don’t have to make any decisions because Mistress makes the decisions for them. They are not in charge for a couple of hours. Somebody else is taking charge and being responsible for them. They are relieved of the pressure of being in a position of responsibility because it’s time for somebody else to take control. All they have to do is obey whatever is instructed of them.

In short; it is their way of unwinding and recharging. Can a person truly retain a position of power without having some sort of outlet for the pressure? The answer is “no”. We all know the toll stress and pressure can take on the body and mind. So to give control to another gives them the opportunity to shed that stress. Some people might choose to have a relaxing day in a spa. Some might choose to listen to some music. And some, like My clients; choose indulge in a bit of BDSM because they enjoy the opportunity to have somebody else take charge for a change.

But these aren't the only type of people whom might choose to serve Me. While it is true that a good percentage of My clients are in fact people in positions of power; there are also a percentage whom serve because of an itch they've long since had. This itch can often be traced back to an event in their childhood. And again; it’s helping them to have some mental comfort and de-stress.

Take for example; a man who wants to enact a schoolboy fantasy. He wants to be caned in front of others. He wants people to watch while he’s being physically chastised for being naughty. It’s not the pain of being caned which plays a huge part in his fantasy – although that is an important part of it. It’s the humiliation. The fact that such an intimate act is out in the open. People are watching this act take place. There is the shame of having his bottom bared. There is the same of crying out when he’s caned. There is the same of being put on display after the caning; an intimate part of his body has been punished and his pride has been cruelly taken away.

Many men who want this fantasy have often experienced this as a child. It may have been just once or two times in their childhood; but they remember it vividly. And they remember how they felt at the end of it, particularly if the punishment was delivered by a woman. In their adult lives; they seek a powerful woman to “punish” them again; but their life-partner isn't too keen. So instead; they approach a Dominatrix, who will be only too pleased to cater for this desire.

The fact is; that to many clients; seeing a Dominatrix takes them back to a period of their lives where they felt safe and care-free. Life was so much simpler when somebody else was taking responsibility for them. They didn't have the day to day financial worries, worries about the kids, worries about work, when the car insurance is due for renewal, and the wife nagging them for yet another ski holiday. When they were children; they didn't know what stress was. To them; stress was missing the ice-cream van or wondering if Santa will bring that toy they've been aching for. So why shouldn't they go back to a time when life was simple? Wouldn't we all like to have that luxury from time to time?

Why Applying To Serve Is Not Only About Tributes...

It may surprise you to know that serving a Dominatrix is way more than throwing tributes Her way. Now I know that at this point; many boys will have to pick themselves off the floor due to shock, but you're about to receive a very good education in what servitude actually means. And no; it doesn't mean salivating over being spanked while you wank your little maggot. That's not servitude - not by even the slightest stretch of the imagination.

Submission to another is either given or it is isn't. But there are no half measures. Submission is exactly what it sounds like. You submit to the will of another. You give up all power and control and give yourself freely to the control of a Superior. This means your opinions do not matter. Your body becomes the property of the one who owns you. Your thinking is not of yourself but of the one who controls you. In fact every single thing you say or do; is with the Dominant in mind. You become selfless and act only on the commands and directions of somebody else. Every single independent thing about yourself becomes non-existent and is replaced by a dependency on your Dominant. You depend on them to show you the way of how you should speak, act, live and behave. You live your life for them and never for yourself.

So why then are you surprised that your offer of tribute has been refused? Well let's talk about that. Many Dommes will relate to opening up their emails and reading countless messages of "Can I be your slave? If I send tribute, will you own me?" The genuine Dommes among us will ignore those messages. If in fact tribute has been sent in addition to said email; that tribute will be sent back.

But that's how to approach a Domme right? That's how you attract their attention, isn't it? WRONG! You cannot win over a Dominatrix with the promise or act of tribute. Tribute is just the tip of the iceberg. Anybody can send a gift certificate or add funds to a google wallet account. It takes all of five minutes and requires the minimum of effort. And yet you expect for be owned as a result of that tiny effort? Not going to happen.

While it is true that you should expect to pay for the time of a Dominatrix; don't fool yourself into thinking that is all She wants from you. She wants to know what you can DO for her. How are you going to entertain Her? What are you going to do to please Her? Are you going to be obedient and carry out every single one of Her commands without questions? Are you going to completely give yourself over to Her every whim? THAT is what you should be considering when you approach a Dominatrix. Offering tribute in return for ownership means you are already setting conditions and expectations from Her. You are attempting to call the shots and be in control of the relationship. Why would a Dominatrix want to consider owning somebody who does that?

If you are going to submit to the will of another; you should understand that you have no business setting conditions before you start. Mistress will set those conditions IF She wants to speak to you. And you will learn to live by those conditions whether you like it or not. But as far as you're concerned; your servitude is unconditional. You simply do as you're told - that's the bottom line. She commands - and you do.

So for all those who are still unconvinced ask yourself this: Would you approach a prospective employer in the same manner? Would you sit in the interview and say; "if I give you money, will you employ me?" I didn't think so. Applying to serve a Dominatrix is very much like applying for a job. You tell your prospective employer what you can bring to the company in terms of your skills and expertise. You sell yourself to them so that they want to consider you. If you're not qualified for the job; a sizeable cheque included with your job application isn't going to make the slightest difference...

Time to start the journey.....

Because your life has no meaning without Me....

Because you yearn to throw yourself at My feet.....

Because you know you have no choice but to obey....

You will crawl, you will kneel and you will serve.

Skype bookings available today until 4.30pm....your journey into complete submission begins here.....

mistresscristal@mail.com

Free-Loaders - How to spot them - and how to exterminate them!

Today I want to talk about free-loaders. You will have probably heard Me use this term very often. And for those of you who don't understand what a free-loaders is; you're about to receive some education.

A free-loader who is somebody who seeks your attention or a cam show, but has no intention of paying for it. They've probably exhausted every free-porn site on the net and now want a taste of a live show...but expect it for free. They haven't had to pay for their porn before, so why should they pay for it now, live or not?

Let’s face it – free-loaders are scum. They are leeches who plague Dommes and camgirls because in their warped imagination; they feel we OWE it to them to give them free attention. We are just a stranger on a webcam and because of that they feel they shouldn’t have to pay for our time. Hell, we only exist so they can get their rocks off, right? Without them, we wouldn’t even be on cam…WRONG!

The fact is, we don’t need the attention of free-loaders.  And it seriously is messed up thinking that they expect us to help them “cum” or live out their sexual fantasies for nothing. It’s not going to happen.  They are simply stealing our time and our attention and taking advantage at the same time.

Seriously, would you go into a restaurant; have a slap-up 4 course meal, and say “yeah, I feel satisfied now, but don’t bother sending me the bill. I’m having this for nothing!”? No of course you wouldn’t. And would you take your car into the garage, have it serviced and then say “yeah this is on the house – you need to service my car. I don’t need you!” Nope, that wouldn’t happen either.

The restaurant and the garage amount to the same – they are providing a service. So are we. And because we are providing a service; we expect to be PAID for it. It’s not about demanding you give us money because you owe us. It’s about the fact that we are giving you one on one attention, taking time out of our day to speak to you, performing on webcam for you, as SERVICE – not out of the goodness of our hearts. Yeah, some of us may be as sweet as sugar – but we’re not stupid and you’re not a charity case.

Day in, day out I encounter freeloaders – mostly on AdultWork  Direct Cam. Yes, I could choose not to use the free preview option – but in all honesty, if it wasn't for the freeloaders – it would be a nifty little marketing tool. Sometimes I’ll offer free preview throughout my entire shift, sometimes I’ll offer it for a limited time – just to whet their appetite.  But I won’t EVER give them a full cam show for free.

The thing is; most free-loaders are subtle about it. But not so subtle that I don’t know what they’re up to. The ones who hang around in free preview asking endless questions..yeah, they’re stealing your attention away from those who are happy to pay for your time. The ones who claim they will go private if you stand up, show your feet,  or any other part of your body – yeah right, I’ve heard THAT one before. Try before you buy – not in My cam room.

And then there are those who are blatant – and yes I have had a few of these. I had one recently, who gave the game away by asking; “what do you do in free?” Now this speaks volumes. Translated it means  “I’m a free-loader. I’m not going to pay – but you’re going to give me what I want in free preview..”  No, I’m not. And with that, like every other free-loader – he was kicked out. And even though it’s a six week block via Adultwork, I shall remember him – and keep kicking him out until he gets the message and stops trying.

Free-loaders find themselves in for a big disappointment when they try it on with Me. I don’t give anything away. No teasing flashes of feet, no Skype address, no kik usernames, no explicit chat – NOTHING until they have paid. If they send gifts, they don’t get ANYTHING until gift is received (yes, free-loaders like to cancel gifts as well). In fact, if they’re unknown to Me, they tribute via gift certificate until they have proven themselves trustworthy. No tribute – no attention. This is also why I only take Amazon GC as tribute. I don’t take Paypal, not just because Paypal  doesn’t allow it but because payments can be reversed or cancelled.

I also apply the same approach with emails. I have a 3 email rule – they will get a response to 3 emails and no more. After that; they are expected to tribute. No tribute means no more emails to them. This applies to both My personal email address and the AdultWork/NiteFlirt email system. Just think about it – while you’re sending emails to them; they’re stealing your time and attention and probably getting a free wank in the process.

The trick is to be vigilant. Don’t give it away – give an inch and they will take a yard.  And trust your gut. If you instincts tell you “okay, this guy is after a freebie” get rid of them. Don’t allow them to steal your attention away from those who are paying for you time. If they claim they have “sent tribute” double check. If they tip in Direct Cam – verify they have tipped before doing a show. Yes, that is a popular scam as well – fake tips. If they attempt to chat with you on Skype – remind them at once that they must pay tribute. Then don’t engage in any further conversation with them until they have made that tribute If they don’t  tribute; get rid of them – those who are genuine will be only too happy to tribute. Those who come up with excuse after excuse, or try the old “delay tactics” have no intention of paying. Yes, I’m referring to those who attempt to chat after you have told them to make a tribute – they aren’t going to pay – so you aren’t going to talk to them.

Oh and those on twitter who ask you to follow them – they’re free-loaders. (And more often than not; are the twitter "egg".)  A genuine sub knows that to be granted the honour of a follow; he has to tribute. Same goes for those who send you a DM when you have specifically told them to email you – they ignore your demand and continue to message you. Yeah – ignore them – they don’t want to tribute either.

Be smart; be up front and tell them straight – you want it, you pay for it. And STICK to it. Don’t be swayed by promises, offers or even threats (yes, I’ve been threatened with bad feedback by a free-loader! Like him, his threat meant nothing.)  It’s YOUR cam room or cam business at the end of the day. And it’s YOUR rules.  If they can’t follow them, then they have no business approaching you.

Masturbation Monday.

I know that if it were up to you; a lot of you pathetic worms would be jerking your maggots off 24/7. Let's face it - a good percentage of you simply can't leave your twig and berries alone. Morning, noon and night, there you are; pumping your fists until you just about rip your cocks off. Chance would be a fine thing for the latter...

Luckily for you; there is a day dedicated to all the wankers out there - Masturbation Monday.

Masturbation Monday means exactly what it says on the tin. You are ALLOWED to masturbate. But there are conditions. What's that? You thought you'd be able to masturbate at your leisure? Oh you poor deluded fools! Of course not! Self-pleasure comes at a price - whether you like it or not!

You will ONLY be allowed to masturbate if you follow My instructions. That's right - I will be telling you exactly HOW I want you to jerk that little maggot. And you will not deviate away from those instructions. It's My way or no way.

Furthermore; IF I decide to allow you release; you will be licking up EVERY SINGLE DROP of your mess. It's your mess at the end of the day. And I'm not about to see it wasted. What comes out, goes back in.

Oh and you'll be learning how to jerk off PROPERLY as well. Masturbation is far more than simply pumping your fist. Of course the compulsive wankers will know that. But for the unenlightened; there are many ways to spank the monkey. And masturbation doesn't just involve your cock! Yes really! Your cock is just the tip of the ice-berg. 

For example; the male g-spot. "Oh only women have a g-spot, right?" WRONG! Men have one too - in fact they have several. Be a good boy and do exactly what I say, and perhaps I will help you to find yours.

Oh and it is possible to cum WITHOUT touching your dirty little dick at all...I have ways and means to ensure that happens....IF I feel you're deserving of it.

A few items required for your Masturbation Monday session:

Lube

Webcam

Dildo/beads/vibrator/plug (vibrator required for milking - and I'm not talking cows...)

Empty plate or glass.

You have those items? Of course you do! Then take your hand off your dick long enough to book your Skype session. Email Me at the address below and then abstain. You only touch WHEN I say so!

mistresscristal@mail.com

Service Interrupted...

Unfortunately, it would seem Virgin Media have chosen a MONDAY to do "essential maintenance work" on their broadband service. Oh how thoughtful of them! Thank you for letting us all know that you will be doing this....oh wait you didn't - I just found out with My intermittent broadband service.

Anyway, this means that sadly, I will be unable to offer cam today. I will be available via AdultWork Phone Chat instead. I will also be offering Instant Messenger/Text Chat bookings via Skype later this evening.

Calls to My AdultWork line are priced at 80p per minute. For details, simply visit My AdultWork profile via the link:

www.adultwork.com/TheCristalDomme

Virgin Media state the "maintenance work" should be completed after 3pm - so I'll be on DirectIm then - all being well.

Apologies folks! Totally beyond My control.

Deadly Nightshade & Deadly Mistress....

The Deadly Nightshade is also known as "Atropa Belladonna" and is one of the most toxic plants found in the Eastern Hemisphere.

The name "atropa" is derived from the Greek Goddess Atropos - one of the three Greek fates or destinies who would determine the course of a man's life by weaving threads that would symbolize his birth, the events in his life and finally his death. 

The name "belladonna" is Italian; meaning "beautiful lady".

It is both beautiful and deadly. The berries look particularly attractive and are sweet in taste - tempting but toxic. Consumption of two to five berries by adults is probably lethal. The most toxic part of the plant is the root, but eating a single leave of Atropa Belladonna can be fatal to an adult.

No dear readers; this is not a biology lesson. This is what is known as "symbolism". You see; like the Deadly Nightshade I too am toxic. And like the Deadly Nightshade I am beautiful. I am a Goddess and a "belladonna" and just as tempting as those sweet, but deadly berries.

The difference is; you DON'T get taste. ALL parts of Me are toxic - particularly My imagination. My eyes are hypnotic which means I will pull you in and easily lead you to give up complete control. And once you're under My spell; there is no escape. You will transfixed by the commands leaving My beautiful lips and will be compelled to obey. 

While My toxicity is not fatal; it certainly isn't something to be taken lightly. I have the power. ALL of the power. Don't be so sure that you can guess My next move. Like Atropa Belladonna; My toxicity has unpredictable effects. I can pull you in, captivate you, render you completely helpless then leave you to stew in your own frustrating juices. Or maybe I'll give you what you crave? Just don't forget; I call the shots - and you are a slave to My desires - not your own. 

Like Atropos; I will also weave the threads of your destiny. And while I'm weaving those threads, you will continue to fall deeper and deeper under My spell. Like the fish to the juicy worm, you'll be hooked ready for Me to reel you in. You will then know there is only one destiny for you - to OBEY. And why will you obey? Because you will learn to fear the extent of My toxicity....

Hooked already? Then prove to Me that you are worthy of My attention. Apply now and tell Me WHAT you can do to please and amuse. But take care in your application; My toxicity doesn't have an antidote....

mistresscristal@mail.com

A Date For Your Diary.

Coming up on 19th March is a VERY important date for your calendar - MY BIRTHDAY.

Now while it is obligatory for My owned slaves to treat Me, I invite unowned slaves to treat Me as well.

I am accepting Amazon.co.uk E Gift Cards for this very special occasion. You may send them to:

mistresscristal@mail.com

I also have a dedicated Amazon Wishlist for you to make good use of; link to this is below:

http://www.amazon.co.uk/registry/wishlist/15QQ8NYETO93F

For those who are owned by Me; I strongly suggest you DON'T disappoint....you know what happens when you disappoint Mistress.....

For those who aren't owned; the fact that I acknowledge your existence in return for your gift, is more than enough....

Purification By Pain - My Church of Sadistic Purification.

Back in Medieval times; criminals and heathens were often tortured for their crimes. This torture; carried out before the ultimate punishment of death; was designed to "purify" the soul ready for the afterlife. By receiving pain; the tortured would be able to make peace with their guilt to become well...pure.

I too am a believer of this; granted perhaps not the same means, but nonetheless, I share the same school of thought that pain is good for the soul - and it is very good in encouraging subs to acknowledge their crimes, realise their guilt and ultimately learn how to be a good, obedient and selfless submissive; rather than a disgusting, selfish and deviant little slug.

This is why I designed Sunday Confessional. It is an opportunity for the wicked to crawl before Me, to confess all, to beg for purification by pain, to suffer and become free from sin. Forget a simple; "I'm sorry Mistress. It won't happen again." Those are only words. ACTIONS speak louder than words. I want to make sure if definitely doesn't happen again - by any means necessary.

Some of My methods are what you would call "ironic." For example; if you have been wanking too much - prepare to wank while it HURTS. If you've been a dirty little pervert, ogling at women while you play with yourself; be prepared to be humiliated and pegged. And if you have been less than respectful; be prepared to suffer every form of torture I have up My sleeve, until respectful behaviour is imprinted on your brain.

These are but a small introduction of the kind of methods I use. In reality; the list is endless. I am sadistic by nature. So whatever disgusting behaviour you've been getting up to; I guarantee a method of torture which will reflect that behaviour. And don't assume you will be purified physically either. Psychological punishments are also very effective - and longer lasting....

My Church of Sadistic Purification is open EVERY Sunday as part of Sunday Confessional. Confession begins at 1.30pm and lasts until 5pm - three and a half hours of delicious torture and entertainment. It pleases Me to see you suffer as you learn the error of your ways. I can think of no better way to spend a Sunday.

And while it's true that of course you will fall to you knees; forget about praying for forgiveness. I may be a Goddess and a Femdom - but no amount of prayer will save you. Purification is the ONLY way to make you behave...

mistresscristal@mail.com