I had an interesting and very enjoyable chat yesterday, with a phone slave who's very much into cuckoldry and until recently was serving a Professional Dominatrix in that capacity on a long-term basis.
Unlike many of the "wannabe" cucks I've spoken to in the past; this guy really understood the whole psychology behind the fetish. To him; it wasn't about just watching his Mistress enjoy herself with a Bull. It was about accepting his emasculation and learning to embrace the spiritual and emotional changes which often come with it.
He had spent four and a half months locked in chastity during his time with his Mistress. That in itself was pretty impressive (although I know of one slave who's in chastity for much longer!), but hearing him talk about the psychological experiences of it was fascinating and it proved to Me that his head was definitely in the right place for the fetish.
He talked about how he felt that his mind had been completely opened by being in chastity. He no longer felt the need to assert his masculinity because it had been taken away from him. Instead; he went about his daily life in a selfless manner; learning that the world does not revolve around him or indeed his penis. Rather he was just one person in a big wide world.
It is true that many men place far too much emphasis on what is between their legs. To the unenlightened; the size or even the sheer fact that they have a penis gives them a sense of over-importance. They are selfish and focus on only one thing - their own pleasure. But when you put a slave into chastity and cuckold him at the same time; notice how quickly that changes. Sure; they fight the inevitable at first; but eventually they will learn to accept their fate and they learn that they have taken their pleasure for granted; because they have assumed they have a right to it. The mind shifts from it's sole focus of self-gratification to understanding that their needs are but a tiny fish in a massive ocean.
He talked about how one day; he was approached by a young woman at his local railway station. She was feeling intimidated by a gang of men who had been bothering her on her train journey. She asked him to stay with her until her boyfriend arrived to pick her up from the station. She needed to feel safe. In the past; slave would have told her where to go. It was not his problem. But because of the power of being in chastity; his priorities had shifted. He stayed with the woman for as long as it took until her lift arrived. He felt a responsibility to help this woman.
See what had happened here? He no longer saw women as objects for his sexual kicks. Instead; women were to be worshipped and cherished and only once he had pleased them; would they please him - provided of course they felt inclined to do so.
While he watched the Bull fuck his Mistress; he admitted that he felt overwhelmed with jealousy. The Bull in question was black, and very well endowed. His Mistress was white. Slave is black. Yes; there is a status and racial status thing going on here; without wishing to delve into racial humiliation. But in his mind; the Bull was his equal and yet was above him. He had to call the Bull "Master" and beg him to fuck his Mistress. And as he watched Bull enjoy what slave so desperately wanted; he was overcome with a multitude of conflicting emotions - jealousy, excitement, and even humility; such is the psychological power of chastity combined with cuckoldry.
At the end of his time in chastity; his Mistress gave him a choice. He could either fuck Her, or he could please Her by fucking the gorgeous cross-dresser She had with her. He told Me about how this cross-dresser was stunning - and certainly didn't look like a guy in clothes. Mistress had clearly chosen this cross-dresser wisely. But in giving slave the choice; She emphasised how fucking the cross-dresser would please Her more; yet the choice was slave's and slave's only. A test of loyalty and indeed priorities.
Slave was tempted. He had spent 4 and a half months in chastity and had watched his Mistress repeatedly fucked by a Bull. His cock had seen absolutely no action. But on the other hand; because he had received psychological and emotional clarity during his time in chastity; he knew it was important to please his Mistress and he felt compelled to do that more than anything. So what did he choose? He chose the cross-dresser. And after he had fucked the cross-dress while his Mistress had watched and played with Herself; she told him how proud She was that he had made the decision the please Her rather then please himself. THAT was his reward. Not the physical act of receiving pleasure. No; it was the praise from his Mistress which gave him the most pleasure. He was no longer proud of what was between his legs. Instead he was proud of what he could do to make his Mistress happy.
And that ladies and gentlemen; is what serving a Dominatrix is about. It is the true meaning of absolute servitude; thinking of what will please Mistress but never considering pleasing yourself. This is what you should be aiming for when you take the decision to serve. It should be at the front of your mind at all times. Only then can you truly be worthy of serving.
Unlike many of the "wannabe" cucks I've spoken to in the past; this guy really understood the whole psychology behind the fetish. To him; it wasn't about just watching his Mistress enjoy herself with a Bull. It was about accepting his emasculation and learning to embrace the spiritual and emotional changes which often come with it.
He had spent four and a half months locked in chastity during his time with his Mistress. That in itself was pretty impressive (although I know of one slave who's in chastity for much longer!), but hearing him talk about the psychological experiences of it was fascinating and it proved to Me that his head was definitely in the right place for the fetish.
He talked about how he felt that his mind had been completely opened by being in chastity. He no longer felt the need to assert his masculinity because it had been taken away from him. Instead; he went about his daily life in a selfless manner; learning that the world does not revolve around him or indeed his penis. Rather he was just one person in a big wide world.
It is true that many men place far too much emphasis on what is between their legs. To the unenlightened; the size or even the sheer fact that they have a penis gives them a sense of over-importance. They are selfish and focus on only one thing - their own pleasure. But when you put a slave into chastity and cuckold him at the same time; notice how quickly that changes. Sure; they fight the inevitable at first; but eventually they will learn to accept their fate and they learn that they have taken their pleasure for granted; because they have assumed they have a right to it. The mind shifts from it's sole focus of self-gratification to understanding that their needs are but a tiny fish in a massive ocean.
He talked about how one day; he was approached by a young woman at his local railway station. She was feeling intimidated by a gang of men who had been bothering her on her train journey. She asked him to stay with her until her boyfriend arrived to pick her up from the station. She needed to feel safe. In the past; slave would have told her where to go. It was not his problem. But because of the power of being in chastity; his priorities had shifted. He stayed with the woman for as long as it took until her lift arrived. He felt a responsibility to help this woman.
See what had happened here? He no longer saw women as objects for his sexual kicks. Instead; women were to be worshipped and cherished and only once he had pleased them; would they please him - provided of course they felt inclined to do so.
While he watched the Bull fuck his Mistress; he admitted that he felt overwhelmed with jealousy. The Bull in question was black, and very well endowed. His Mistress was white. Slave is black. Yes; there is a status and racial status thing going on here; without wishing to delve into racial humiliation. But in his mind; the Bull was his equal and yet was above him. He had to call the Bull "Master" and beg him to fuck his Mistress. And as he watched Bull enjoy what slave so desperately wanted; he was overcome with a multitude of conflicting emotions - jealousy, excitement, and even humility; such is the psychological power of chastity combined with cuckoldry.
At the end of his time in chastity; his Mistress gave him a choice. He could either fuck Her, or he could please Her by fucking the gorgeous cross-dresser She had with her. He told Me about how this cross-dresser was stunning - and certainly didn't look like a guy in clothes. Mistress had clearly chosen this cross-dresser wisely. But in giving slave the choice; She emphasised how fucking the cross-dresser would please Her more; yet the choice was slave's and slave's only. A test of loyalty and indeed priorities.
Slave was tempted. He had spent 4 and a half months in chastity and had watched his Mistress repeatedly fucked by a Bull. His cock had seen absolutely no action. But on the other hand; because he had received psychological and emotional clarity during his time in chastity; he knew it was important to please his Mistress and he felt compelled to do that more than anything. So what did he choose? He chose the cross-dresser. And after he had fucked the cross-dress while his Mistress had watched and played with Herself; she told him how proud She was that he had made the decision the please Her rather then please himself. THAT was his reward. Not the physical act of receiving pleasure. No; it was the praise from his Mistress which gave him the most pleasure. He was no longer proud of what was between his legs. Instead he was proud of what he could do to make his Mistress happy.
And that ladies and gentlemen; is what serving a Dominatrix is about. It is the true meaning of absolute servitude; thinking of what will please Mistress but never considering pleasing yourself. This is what you should be aiming for when you take the decision to serve. It should be at the front of your mind at all times. Only then can you truly be worthy of serving.
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